Portal of Madness

FRAILITY

L.g.olson — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 02:14:53 GMT

THE ANSWER IS NO, IT IS EVERY TIME,
DON'T BE FOOL, DON'T BE SO BLIND.

I AM NOT THE ONE, WHO LEFT YOU THIS WAY,
BUT I AM THE ONE WHO CAN MAKE YOU PAY.

SEARCH FOR YOUR SOUL, YOU NEVER WILL FIND,
WHAT USED TO BE YOU WAS ALL LEFT BEHIND.

TAUNTED AND TEASED, YOU TORE UP YOUR PATH,
YOU FUCKED THE WORLD, IT FUCKED YOU BACK.

WONDERING ANGRY, YOU FOUGHT ALL ALONE,
YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD WON, THERE'S NO GOING HOME.

THEY BEAT YOU SO BADLY, OH HOW THEY PLAYED,
THEY MADE YOU A JOKE, JUST TO GET LAID.

FORCED IN CONFUSION, ANSWER TO NOONE,
YOU REALLY FUCKED UP, IT LEFT YOU STUNNED.

POOR LITTLE BABY, IS THAT A TEAR IN YOUR EYE,
DID YOU JUST REALIZE, THE PRICE WAS TO HIGH.

BEGGING FOR LOVE YOU PITIFUL HUMAN TRACE,
STEP UP TO ME, AND I WILL POUND YOUR FACE.

STUPIDITY RULES IN THIS CARELESS WORLD,
WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU CAN TAKE THIS GIRL.

MEAGER AND WEAK, SO DEFENSELESS AM I,
TAKE A GOOD LOOK, I'LL NEVER DIE.

I TOOK MY BEATINGS, I PAID MY COST,
I'VE WADED THREW HELL, BUT I NEVER LOST.

FRAIL AND DAMAGED YOU THINK YOU CAN WIN,
YOUR FAR TO WEAK, SO DON'T EVEN BEGIN.

I'VE SEEN IT ALL, SO BITTERLY CAST,
I'VE FED THE DEMONS, STILL I'M TO FAST.

LICK OFF THE BLOOD, NURSE YOUR POOR WOUNDS,
LEARN ALL THE RULES, OR YOU TO ARE DOOMED.

EVIL BEGETS EVIL, SO YOU CHOOSE YOUR SIDE,
I WILL CHOOSE FOR YOU, WHERE YOU'LL SOUL SHALL RESIDE.

I AM A WHORE, EVIL ABSOLUTE
I AM THE ONE, WHO CALLS YOU TO SUIT.

DON'T PLAY COY OR FEEL SO MISUSED,
I'M NOT INTO FORGIVENESS, YOU I WILL USE.

TAKE A GOOD LOOK, DEEP IN MY EYES,
I AM THE BEAST OF ALL OF YOUR LIES.

ONE NOT MISSED

L.g.olson — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 01:59:11 GMT

HOW DO I LET GO, OF SOMETHING I LOST,
SO HARD TO RELEASE, TO ACCEPT THE FINAL COST.

I KNOW WHAT I WANTED, I WANTED YOU,
BUT LIFE HITS YOU HARD AND CUTS YOU STRAIGHT THREW.

TAKE ALL YOU HAVE LEFT AND RUN VERY FAR,
I HOPE THAT ONE DAY, YOU'LL REGRET THAT NEW SCAR.

BUT THAT NEVER HAPPENS, NEVER LIKE THIS,
I FEAR THAT I ALONE, WILL BE THE ONE NOT MISSED.

SAD IS A HEART WHO LEARNS BY THE DAY,
WHAT ONCE WAS LOVE, NOW IS DECAY.

TEARS ARE REMINDERS OF ALL THAT'S BEEN LOST,
PAIN IN YOUR SOUL, THAT IS THE COST.

SEEING YOURSELF, FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME,
FINDING YOUR EMPTY, YOUR LOVE WAS SO BLIND.

I WISH I KNEW THEN, WHAT I KNOW THIS TIME,
THAT NOTHING IS REAL, JUST IN OUR MINES.

HOLDING SO TIGHTLY FOR THAT ONE SPECIAL SOUL,
CAUSES THE HEARTACHE, THEN LOSES CONTROL.

TAKE A DEEP BREATH, MAYBE DREAM ONE MORE TIME,
OF WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN AND MIGHT HAVE BEEN MINE.

I OPEN MY EYES AND I STILL SEE YOUR FACE,
I WISH I UNDERSTOOD, BUT I'VE BEEN REPLACED.

SWALLOW THE SADNESS, YOU STILL NEED TO HIDE,
BRING ON THE MADNESS, YOU CARRY INSIDE.

IT WILL NOT HEAL THE WOUNDS ARE TO DEEP,
FORGET ABOUT PIECE, I'LL NEVER SLEEP.

FEEL YOURSELF SINKING BENEATH A NEW WAKE,
FEEL THE PAIN WITH EVERY BREATH YOU TAKE.

HOW I HATE THIS, A LIFE WITH NO SOUND,
ONLY GOING DEEPER, STARTING TO DROWN.

I TRY AND REMEMBER ALL THAT YOU ARE,
STILL DOESN'T HEAL THAT HORRIBLE SCAR.

I KNOW WHAT I AM, IT'S ANOTHER MISTAKE,
IT'S THE COST OF HEART AND THE CRUSH OF THE BREAK.

TAKE ME AWAY FROM ALL OF THIS PAIN,
DON'T LET IT DROWN ME, FROM HENCE IT HAD CAME.

WALK AWAY QUIETLY, KEEP SOME OF YOUR PRIDE,
A NOTCH IN A BULLET, ANOTHER SOULS HIDE.

PRETEND THAT YOUR HAPPY AND THAT THEY DIDN'T KILL,
WHAT'S LEFT OF YOUR BODY AND PITIFUL WILL.

KNEEL DOWN SOFTLY, BACK TO THE WALL,
CLOSE YOUR EYES TIGHTLY, AND TAKE THAT LAST FALL.

FORGIVE ME

L.g.olson — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 01:32:47 GMT

CAN YOU FORGIVE A WORLD SO VAIN,
CAN YOU RELEASE ALL OF THE PAIN.

BACK WHEN I THOUGHT, I KNEW IT ALL,
THE ONLY THING I DID RIGHT, WAS LEARN HOW TO FALL.

TELL A FEW LIES, I WAS NEVER WRONG,
RAN FROM THE TRUTH, NEVER BELONG.

BETRAY THE VERY BLOOD, THAT RAN THREW THESE VEINS,
COVERED BY HATRED AND BRUISED BY THE PAIN.

HOW COULD I HURT, SOMETHING SO CLOSE TO ME,
HOW COULD I TREAT THEM, LIKE THEY WERE A DISEASE.

SO FULL ANGER , REBELLION AND RAGE,
FIGHTING THE VERY BLOOD THAT RAN THREW THESE VEINS.

THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE, NOW I SEE,
THAT ALL THEIR GOOD IS INSIDE OF ME.

THE HEART THAT BEATS, BEATS NO LESS,
THAN THE HEART, INSIDE THEIR CHEST.

SO RIDDLED IN A ANGRY PRIDE,
BLAME THEM ALL SO I COULD JUST HIDE.

IF THEY COULD SEE ME, FOR WHO I REALLY AM,
MAYBE THEY'D SEE, I DIDN'T FAIL THEM.

IN VAIN

L.g.olson — Wed, 09 Jan 2008 15:29:08 GMT

A NIGHT IN VAIN, SO RICH IS THE LIGHT,
LIFES SWEET PAIN, THE CRUELIST OF FIGHT.

BITTER HEARTS WORN, CARELESS OF WHIM,
LAY TO THE STORM, CALLING THE WINDS.

FEEDING THE SOULESS, ANOTHER SO FRAIL,
HE COMES TO CONTROL US, WHEN YOUR MIND DOES FAIL.

CRADLE THE FORSAKEN, THE WEEPING AND BOUND,
FEED THE TEMPTATION, INSIDE IT IS FOUND.

GIVEN REDEMPTION, SHE BEGS ON HER KNEES,
WORSHIPS THE NIGHT, TO TAKE WHAT HE PLEASE.

SKIN SO SUTLE, PALE TO THE NIGHT,
THE CALL OF HER BLOOD, ENVOLKES THE NIGHT.

THE SMELL OF HER VIRTUE, THICK ON HIS LIPS,
TASTE OF HER FLESH, BLOOD DOWN HER HIPS.

SEDUCTION SO SWEET, A PROMISED ENTWINE,
HER BODY LIKE LACE, HIS LIPS ARE LIKE WINE.

TASTE OF THE BODY, FEED FROM THE BREAST,
SHE IS HIS VICTIM, A WILLING CONQUEST.

ONCE

L.g.olson — Mon, 01 Oct 2007 00:22:45 GMT

I ONCE CARED, WHEN A HEART BROKE,

I ONCE CARED WHEN SOMEONE SPOKE.

I ONCE CARED LIKE NO OTHER,

I ONCE CARED THAT OTHERS SUFFERED.

I ONCE CARED THAT MY HEART WAS GOOD,

I ONCE CARED THAT I WAS MISUNDERSTOOD.

I ONCE SAW THE BEAUTY IN THIS LIFE,

I ONCE SAW HOPE, AND THEN I SAW TWICE.

I ONCE SAW LOVE, BUT THAT WAS A LIE,

I ONCE TOUCHED A HEART, BUT THAT TO HAS DIED.

I ONCE THOUGHT I COULD CHANGE THE WORLD,

I ONCE THOUGHT BROKEN HEARTS COULD BE CURED.

I ONCE SAW PASSION IN MY OWN LIFE,

I ONCE THOUGHT BUT THEN I THOUGHT TWICE.

I ONCE CARED THAT MY LIFE WAS SO MUCH MORE,

I ONCE CARED, THAT I WANTED MORE.

I ONCE SEARCHED FOR ANSWERS THREW DOORS,

I ONCE FOUGHT MY OWN INNER WAR.

I ONCE SOUGHT WHAT COULD NOT BE FOUND,

I ONCE THOUGHT I WOULDN'T HIT GROUND.

I ONCE SAW THE BEAUTY IN THIS LIFE,

I ONCE SAW HOPE, AND THEN I SAW TWICE.

I ONCE SAW WHAT COULDN'T BE SEEN,

I ONCE BELIEVED IN MY OWN DREAMS.

I ONCE CRIED FOR THOSE IN PAIN,

I ONCE SOUGHT WHAT I'D NEVER GAIN.

I ONCE SAW WHAT I WAS TO BELIEVE,

I ONCE SAW WHAT COULDN'T BE CONCEIVED.

I ONCE SAW PASSION IN MY OWN LIFE,

I ONCE THOUGHT BUT THEN I THOUGHT TWICE.

WHAT TO SAY?...

L.g.olson — Mon, 01 Oct 2007 00:19:13 GMT

I QUESS JUST THIS.

I WISH I KNEW WHAT I KNEW THEN,

I WISH I COULD START OVER AGAN.

I WISH MY LIFE HAD MEANT SO MUCH MORE,

I WISH MY HEART WASN'T SO SORE.

I WISH I WASN'T ALWAYS ALONE,

I WISH I KNEW THE PATH TO HOME.

I WISH I COULD SEE INTO HIS EYES,

I WISH I KNEW IT ALL WAS A LIE.

I WISH I DIDN'T FEEL ALL THE PAIN,

I WISH I WASN'T THE ONE TO BLAME.

I WISH I COULD TOUCH EVERY HEART,

I WISH I KNEW WHERE I WOULD START.

I WISH ALL THAT I WAS , WAS MORE THAN A HOAX,

I WISH I HAD KNOWN I WAS THE JOKE.

I WISH EACH BREATH HAD BEEN A KISS,

I WISH IT WASN'T HIM THAT I MISS.

I WISH EACH TOUCH HAD MADE IT'S OWN SOUND,

I WISH IT WAS HIS HEART I HAD FOUND.

I WISH I COULD OF JUST REACHED DEEP INSIDE,

I WISH I COULD FIND A SAFE PLACE TO HIDE.

I WISH I COULD WISH ALL THAT I AM,

I WISH I COULD WISH, BUT STILL I AM DAMNED.

WHAT IS YOUR SOUL?

L.g.olson — Wed, 29 Aug 2007 23:13:08 GMT

WHAT IS YOUR SOUL..

A SOUL THAT IS BROKEN, A SOUL FULL OF RAGE,

A SOUL THAT IS EMPTY AND LOCKED IN A CAGE.

A SOUL THAT IS WEARY AND FULL OF REGRET,

A SOUL THAT PURE, I'VE NEVER MET.

A SOUL THAT IS FLAWLESS AND SOFT TO THE TOUCH,

A SOUL THAT IS LOVING AND GIVES YOU SO MUCH.

A SOUL MADE OF ICE, A SOUL MADE OF FLAME,

A SOUL IN THE FORM, A SOUL WITH NO NAME.

A SOUL THAT DOES LOVE, A SOUL THAT DOES HATE

A SOUL IS TO FIND, A PERFECT MATE.

A SOUL OF LUST AND PASSION WITHIN,

A SOUL WITH SCALES TO HARD TO GET IN.

A SOUL THAT WILL TAKE YOU AND LEED YOU ASTRAY,

A SOUL THAT WILL SCREAM WITHIN YOU TODAY.

A SOUL THAT IS MAGIC AND SO FULL OF GRACE,

A SOUL THAT IS FROM A IMGINARY PLACE.

A SOUL TO WEAK TO FIGHT OFF THE PAIN,

A SOUL THAT IS DARK IS ALWAYS TO BLAME.

A SOUL THAT WAITS SOFTLY TO SEE WHAT YOU HIDE,

A SOUL THAT KNOWS ALL THE SECRETS AND LIES.

A SOUL THAT IS WAITING TO SEE WHAT YOU'LL DO,

A SOUL THAT IS EVIL AND COMING FOR YOU.

A SOUL THAT IS ALL SEEING AND SO FULL OF SIN,

A SOUL THAT YOU TRUST AND YOU LET IT IN.

A SOUL THAT DON'T SEE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE,

A SOUL THAT IS ANGRY AND SO FULL OF SCARS.

A SOUL THAT TAKES YOU INTO IT'S BITTER LIES,

A SOUL YOU HAVE HAS BEEN BLINDED INSIDE.

A SOUL THAT FEEDS OFF YOUR LOVING HEART,

A SOUL THAT IS ANGRY AND WANTS TO TEAR IT APART.

A SOUL THAT WATCHES YOU ALL THREW THE DAY,

A SOUL THAT SEE'S YOU AS NOTHING BUT PREY.

A SOUL WITH SUCH BEAUTIFUL FACE AND EYES,

A SOUL THAT SMILES AND WANTS YOUR DEMISE.

A SOUL THAT TOUCHS YOUR FLESH WITH SUCH LOVE,

A SOUL THAT YOU KISS AND HAVE BEEN DREAMING OF.

A SOUL THAT WILL TELL YOU WHAT YOU DIE TO HEAR,

A SOUL THAT SMILES AND FEEDS ON YOUR FEARS.

A SOUL OF COMPLETE CHOAS AND UTTER DISMAY,

A SOUL THAT YOU'VE SLEPT WITH AND SMELLED THE DECAY.

A SOUL THAT NOW HAUNTS YOU TO YOUR DIEING DAY,

A SOUL THAT HOLDS YOU AND YOU CAN'T GET AWAY.

A SOUL THAT YOU ONCE FOUND SO HARD TO RESIST,

A SOUL THAT YOU LOVED, BETRAYED WITH A KISS.