Portal of Madness

Etched in my Soul

L.g.olson — Wed, 09 Jan 2008 23:03:15 GMT

THERE IS A PASSION, ETCHED IN A SOULS WALL,
DESCRIBED IN BLOOD BY THOSE THAT WILL FALL.

IT IS NOT A TROPHY AND ISLE OF PAIN,
IT IS NOT A PRAYER TO BE SPOKE SO VAIN.

A CRY FOR FOREVER, AND FOREVER SHALL BE,
I AM THE BLOOD PULLED FROM THE SEA.

WRITHING AND CURSING TO ALL I AM VAIN,
TO FALL FOR A CAPTIVE, LEFT FOR A STAIN.

INVISIBLE CHAINS THAT CUT THREW MY HEART,
ARE WHAT BINDS ME THIS WORLD AND RIPS ME APART.

I AM CURSED TO THE WORDS, AN ENDLESS TORMENT,
FOR THIS IS WHO I AM, THIS LIFE I HAVE SPENT.

NO SIMPLE ANSWERS, MY HEART UNAPPEASED,
I WOULD BEG MY LIFE, UPON BROKEN KNEES.

I SEE MY LIFE AND IT HAS ME TORN,
I WANT WHAT I DREAM, BUT SCARED AND TO WORN.

I CAN SEE IT AND FEEL IT, A FINGERS TOUCH DO I SWAY,
SO CLOSE TO REDEMPTION, BUT IT GETS AWAY.

A SLIP OF MY FLESH, HEAT TO MY TONGUE,
A WAR INSIDE WAGES, BUT NO BATTLE IS WON.

SCREAM IN MY HEAD, RELEASE ALL MY FEARS,
FEARS ARE MY WORDS, ABSOLUTION IS NEAR.

A SLAP OF MY HAND AND IT IS ALL TAKEN AWAY,
YOU ARE THE MASTER OF WORDS, THE MASTER MUST STAY.

ETCHED IN A SOUL, A PASSION IS A KISS,
DESCRIBED IN BLOOD ALL I WILL MISS.

SACRIFICED

L.g.olson — Thu, 30 Aug 2007 13:01:48 GMT

I CANNOT OFFER ANY MORE THAN YOU SEE,

THIS IS WHO I AM AND WHATS INSIDE OF ME.

GIVEN A PASSION THAT GROWS FROM INSIDE,

IT'S UNLIKE ANYTHING YOU CAN FEEL AND I DON'T HAVE TO HIDE.

I CANNOT OFFER LOVE, I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT IS,

I CAN OFFER WHAT I HAVE , THAT'S ALL THAT EXISTS.

THE DARKNESS IS HARD TO REALLY UNDERSTAND,

BUT THE EMPTINESS COMES FROM A SOULESS MAN.

I'VE GIVEN MY HEART TO ONLY BE CRUSHED,

SACRIFICED FOR ANOTHER TO FEED HIS OWN RUSH.

THEY TELL ME THAT NOT ALL MEN ARE REALLY LIKE THIS,

BUT I HAVE TO TELL YOU, I LEARNED FROM A FIST.

COLDNESS AND HATRED SOON TAKES CONTROL,

IT BITTERS YOUR HEART AND THEN EATS YOUR SOUL.

DON'T FEEL SORRY FOR ME, IT'S NOT WHAT I NEED,

I'VE TAKEN THE DARKNESS, FROM THAT I DO FEED.

PASSION AND LUST CAN BE FOUND IN THE HATE,

LOVE HAS NO BEARING ON MY ILL EARNED FATE.

PAIN IS A PLEASURE THAT KEEPS YOU ALIVE,

IT IS THAT REASON I KNEW I SURVIVED.

PRIMAL AND LOATHING CREATED A LIGHT,

I SUCK IT IN AS IF I COULD FLY.

WRITHING AND CHURNING IN MY WICKED BED,

I FOUND MY TRUE PASSION LIES IN MY HEAD.

IT IS A LOVER, A FRIEND AND A FOE,

IT NEVER LIES AND GIVES ME CONTROL.

IT TOUCHS ME DEEPLY AND RAKES THREW MY SKIN,

BLEEDING ME COMPLETELY , ALLOWING IT IN.

NIGHTMARES CARRASS ME WITH IT'S FATAL HAND,

IT GIVES ME THE STRENGTH TO FEED OFF A MAN.

TWISTED AND TURNING, HEAT TURNS TO LUST,

I FAVOR IT'S KISS OF ENDLESS MISTRUST.

SICK AND SEDUCED BY MY NEED TO BE ONE,

MY BODY COMES QUICKLY AND THEN IT IS DONE.

THE DARKNESS YOU SEE IN THESE HEAVENLY EYES,

WILL ONLY BETRAY YOU AND FILL YOU WITH LIES.

COURSEING AND PULSING IT WILL FEED ON YOU

AS INVISABLE HANDS STRIP YOU CLEAR THREW.

ROUGHLY AND SWEETLY YOU SLOWLY RECLINE,

FEEDING ON YOU I FIND SO SUBLIME.

HEATING MY BODY TILL IT TURNS TO DUST,

A SCREAM OF YOUR NAME AND YOU FALL INTO LUST.

BLAME ME MY DEAR FOR ALL I SHOULD CARE,

YOU'LL FIND YOU ARE EMPTY, YOUR SOUL IS NOT THERE.

SMILING AND LAUGHING AS I WATCH YOU FALL,

MY MEMORY IS LONG AND I SHALL REMEMBER IT ALL.

I HOPE YOUR PAIN IS HELD TO 10 FOLD,

I HOPE YOUR HEART DIES BEFORE YOU ARE OLD.

MAKING MISTAKES YOU CAN NEVER BEGIN TO REVEAL,

I HOPE YOUR SCARS AND PAIN , NEVER DO HEAL.

I GIVE YOU THE CURSE OF MY TORTURED MIND,

TO SEARCH FOREVER AND NEVER YOU'LL FIND.

PEACE AND COMPASSION TO BE ONLY A DREAM,

AS YOU LAY BEFORE ME, MY NAME YOU DO SCREAM.

BEG ME FOR MERCY AND DEATH FOR YOUR HEART,

I'LL DRIVE MY PAIN HAPPILY STRAIGHT THREW TO YOUR HEART.

I WILL STAND PROUDLY, I WILL WAIT TILL YOU FALL,

I WILL WATCH YOU SMILING AS YOU START TO CRAWL.

COME TO ME BABY, I'LL TAKE AWAY YOUR PAIN,

I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER, BUT FOREVER IS VAIN.

BLEED UPON ME, I DON'T FEAR YOU NO MORE,

I'M STILL STANDING AND HAVE SETTLED MY SCORE.

ANOTHER COLD AND BITTER NIGHT

L.g.olson — Sun, 19 Aug 2007 18:14:54 GMT

WHAT IS BROKEN CANNOT BE FIXED,

NOT WITH A HUG NOR WITH A KISS.

NOT WITH FLOWERS OR GENTAL HAND,

NOT WITH ANYTHING YOU'D UNDERSTAND.

NOT WITH PASSION NOR A HEATED RUSH,

NOT WITH ANYTHING, YOU BROKE THE TRUST.

SHAME IS YOURS FOR GIVING THE PAIN,

SHAME YOU DON'T FEEL FOR PLAYING SUCH GAMES.

SHAME IS YOUR SOUL AND INSIDE OUR BED,

SHAME IS A PAIN YOU LEFT IN MY HEAD.

ONE THAT IS SCARED AND SO FULL OF TEARS,

ONE THAT'S SEEN PAIN ALL OF THESE YEARS.

ANGRY AND COLD , A SOUL BURN'T TILL DEAD,

I AM THE NIGHTMARE YOU CARRY IN YOUR PITIFUL HEAD.

DREAMS OF RELENTLESS PAIN AND REMORSE,

MY REVENGE WILL BE MY RECOURSE.

THERE ARE NOT DRUGS THAT CAN TAKE THIS AWAY,

I AM THE POISON YOU PUSH IN YOUR VIENS.

MMMTAKE A TASTE OF THIS SWEET KISS,

THE TASTE OF YOUR BLOOD IS WHAT I WILL MISS.

TENDER AND SWEET AND SO FULL OF PLEASURE,

I'M LAUGHING NOW , YOUR SOUL MY TREASURE.

I HOLD IN MY HANDS A SIMPLE PLAN,

THE DEATH OF FRAILTY AND SIMPLE MAN.

I BOW TO NOONE IN THIS MY PRIVATE WAR,

I'VE WATCHED YOU CAREFULLY AND AWAIT THE SCORE.

I AM NOT OVER THE BETRAYAL IT SEEMS,

BUT YOU ARE DEAD IN MY DREAMS.

HAUNTING YOUR BODY, TOUCHING YOUR SKIN,

I BIT MY LIP AND WANT TO TEAR IN.

GRIPPING YOUR FLESH WITH SUCH HEATED RUSH,

RIPPING IT OUT AND WATCHING IT MUSH.

SUCH A PITY TO LOSE A MAN LIKE YOU,

WHO WILL I PLAY WITH, WHAT WILL I DO.

YOUR SUCH A MAN TO BRING OUT THE ANIMAL IN ME,

I HOPE YOU ARE HAPPY WITH ALL YOU CAN SEE.

NEVER HAVE HOPE, NEVER HAVE FEAR,

NEVER FEEL THE PAIN OF HAVING YOU HERE.

NEVER TASTE YOUR FLESH EVER AGAN,

I FEEL THE RELIEF COME FROM WITHIN.

STAREING AND SMILEING AT WHAT I HAVE DONE,

WHIPPING THE BLOOD CAREFULLY FROM MY TOUGNE.

SITTING COLDLY UPON YOUR SILENT CHEST,

THIS IS THE WAY I LIKE IT, BEING ON TOP IS THE BEST

I THOUGHT THIS WOULD HURT AND I'D FEEL GRIEF,

I FEEL NOTHING AS I BURY YOU NICE AND DEEP.

MMMM.I LOVE YOU, I NEED YOU, BUT YOUR BETTER OFF DEAD,

INSTEAD OF HAVING YOUR VIOCE HAUNTING MY HEAD.