Portal of Madness

I AM

L.g.olson — Sun, 19 Aug 2007 11:14:54 GMT

I AM WHO I AM, YOU CANNOT DENY,

I AM THE WHISPER OF LUST AND SIN IN YOUR EYE.

I AM AS SOFT AS THE BREEZE ON WARM SUMMERS NIGHT,

I AM AS COLD AS THE SNOW ON A COLD WINTERS FLIGHT.

I AM THE TOUCH ON YOUR SKIN THAT MAKES YOU SHAKE,

I AM THE BLOOD THAT YOU BLEED WHEN MY NAILS DO RAKE.

I AM SUTTLE AND SPEACHLESS AS A NEW LIGHT BECOMES DAWN,

I AM THE QUIVER OF FLESH AND MY DESIRE IS STRONG.

I AM THE SCREAM THAT YOU CRY AND THE TEARS THAT YOU BLEED

I AM THE SWEETEST OF DREAMS AND THE NIGHTMARE YOU DREAD.

I AM YOUR NEED FOR A PASSION THAT CAN NEVER BE TAMED,

I AM YOUR DARKEST OF SECRETS THAT CARRIES NO NAME.

I AM A TEMPER THAT FLARES , A RAGE WITH NO LIFE

I AM THE VICTIM OF LOVE, THAT CUTS WITH A KNIFE.

I AM A CHEATER AT LIFE AND I NEVER WIN,

I AM THE GRIEF AND THE MADNESS WHERE IT BEGINS.

I AM THE SEDUCTION THAT DRIVES A GOOD MAN INSANE,

I AM THE DISEASE THAT CLUTTERS AND TORMENTS THEIR BRAIN.

I AM YOUR DARKEST FEAR YOU WILL NEVER BELIEVE,

I AM YOUR ANGEL OF LIGHT, IT IS YOU I DECEIVE.

I AM THE BREATH ON YOUR SHOULDER, THAT YOU CANNOT TAKE,

I AM THE KISS ON YOUR LIPS, THAT YOU CAN'T MISTAKE.

I AM UNDER YOUR SKIN, CRAWLING INSIDE

I AM THE FEAR THAT YOU FEEL WHEN DANGER ARISE.

I AM THE ONE YOU LOVE AND YET YOU STILL HATE,

I AM WHO YOU HIDE AND LEAVE IT TO FATE.

I AM NO ANGEL, I CANNOT BE SWAYED,

I AM NOT EVIL, ONLY YOU CAN MAKE ME THIS WAY.

I AM YOUR SOUL FOR NO MAN CAN OWN,

I AM THE ONE THAT CARRY YOU HOME.

I AM THE KISS ON YOUR LIPS THAT YOUR DIEING TO TASTE,

I AM THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT YOU CANNOT WASTE.

I AM THE GLINT IN YOUR EYES THAT SHOWS ME YOUR SOUL,

I AM THE BEAT OF YOUR HEART THAT YOU HAVE NO CONTORL.

I AM NOT YOUR GOD, DON'T WORSHIP A LIE

I AM WHAT YOU MAKE ME, I CANNOT TELL A LIE.

I AM PASSION AND LOVE , ALL YOU CAN DESIRE

I AM EVERYTHING YOU ARE, I AM THE HEAT OF A FIRE.

I BARE YOUR FLESH AND RAKE YOUR SKIN,

I WILL TEAR YOU APART SO I CAN GET IN.

YOU CANNOT DENY ME, I AM ADDICTED TO YOU

I AM THE BEAT IN YOUR HEART, IT BINDS ME TO YOUlgo

DESIRES FALL

L.g.olson — Sat, 18 Aug 2007 20:24:51 GMT

DESIRES FALL, COME WHAT MAY,

COME TO ME, COME THIS DAY.

WASTED TIME, WASTED TEARS,

WASTE NO TIME, WASTED FEARS.

DAYS WILL COME, NIGHTS SHALL PASS,

RESTLESS NIGHTS, SEEM TO LAST.

SLEEPLESS HOURS, LONG DO WE WAIT,

TO FEEL THE PASSION, SOME DISTANT FATE.

LONGING FOR HEARTBEATS, FALL TO OUR DREAMS,

LEAVING US SHAKEN, RIPPED AT THE SEAMS.

WANTON AND DESPERATE, HEARTS SEEM TO CRY,

FEELING THEM FADE, FEELING THEM DIE.

WAITING FOR A TOUCH, WAITING FOR THE END,

A LONG DREARY TRAIL, SEEMS TO BE CONDEMNED.

FEARING THE NIGHT, AS LONELINESS CALLS,

ANOTHER HEART BREAKS, ANOTHER HEART FALLS.

CLOSE YOUR EYES, SLEEP IT AWAY,

PRAY FOR THE NIGHT, PRAY THAT IT STAYS.

SO YOU CAN SLEEP, AND FORGET ALL THE PAIN,

WAKING IS SO HARD, WHEN NOTHING HAS CHANGED.

DREAM OF A LOVER, A HEART TO BE YOURS,

TO FACE THE DAY, SO EMPTY ONCE MORE.

CANNOT CRY, A PAINFUL RELEASE,

FIGHT FOR YOUR LIFE, PRAY IT WILL CEASE.

CAUGHT UP IN THE FEARS, YOU RUN AWAY,

FACING THE PAIN , FOR ANOTHER DAY.

STAND IN THE DARKNESS, SEARCH FOR THE LIGHT,

TO BLIND TO SEE IT, TO HURT TO FIGHT.

FADE TO BLACK, ALL COMES DOWN,

YOU CAN BREATH, BUT STILL YOU DROWN.

SHATTERED

L.g.olson — Sat, 18 Aug 2007 20:14:32 GMT

IF A HEART AND SOUL WAS MADE OF GLASS,

LOVE WOULD SHATTER AND NEVER LAST.

MEND IT , DEFEND IT, AND LOCK IT AWAY,

BECAUSE SOMEONE CRUEL CAN TAKE IT AWAY.

IT DOES NOT MATTER WHO WE ARE,

NOTHING IS WORTH THE PERMANENT SCAR.

NOONE SEES YOU, EVEN WHEN THEY SAY THEY DO,

THE WORDS ARE LIES AND NOTHING IS TRUE.

SEEING , BELIEVING AND DARING TO HOPE,

STRANGLES YOUR LIFE TILL YOUR UNABLE TO COPE.

WHAT YOU SEE IN THE MIRROR, IS SOMETIMES A LIE,

TURN AWAY QUICKLY, BEFORE THEY SEE YOU CRY.

DARK EYES CARRY STORIES, BITTER AND COLD,

AND RIGHT BEFORE YOU, YOU START TO GET OLD.

WHAT WAS THAT SECRET WE ALL USED TO KNOW,

A SECRET TO LIFE, THAT WE ALL LOVED SO.

EAGER AND YOUNG, WE PLAYED IN OUR HEADS,

NEVER TO THINK, OUR HEARTS COULD BE DEAD.

TO SEE THE WORLD, SO BRIGHT IN IT'S WAY,

ONLY TO FIND, IT ALSO BETRAYS.

WHEN I AM GONE, WILL MY CHILDREN REALLY KNOW,

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. AND I LOVED THEM SO.

WILL THEY LIVE THROUGH ALL MY MISTAKES,

TAKE THE BLOWS THAT MY HEART TAKES.

WILL THEY STAND BACK UP AND FACE THE SOUND,

WILL THEY CHERISH A LOVE I NEVER FOUND.

I SIT HERE ALONE, ALMOST EVERY NIGHT,

IF PEOPLE REALLY KNEW ME, THEY'D SEE MY PLIGHT.

OVERWHELMED AND BROKEN, LIFE IS SO FAST,

THAT EACH COMING MORNING, I PRAY I CAN LAST.

HEARTBREAK AND HEARTACHE, TORMENTS THIS SOUL,

LOST TO THE DEMONS THAT NOBODY KNOWS.

IT IS MY FATE, TO LIVE WITH THESE FEARS,

TO WAKE TO THE DARKNESS, DRENCHED IN TEARS.

TO BROKEN TO SEE, WHAT REALLY LIES AHEAD,

A FORTUNE IN WORDS THAT NEVER GOT SAID.

I AM THE LOSER THAT ALWAYS GOT MAIMED,

I AM THE PLAYER, THAT ALWAYS GOT PLAYED.

SADNESS AND MOURNING FOR SUCH A CRUEL PAST,

I STARE AT THE GRAVES OF THOSE THAT DIDN'T LAST.

THEY SAT WHERE I SIT, THEY SAW WHAT I'VE SEEN,

THEY BEGGED FOR A LIFE, THEIR CHANCE TO GLEAM.

BUT LIFE DID BETRAY THEM AND LEFT THEM FOR DEAD,

BUT NOW THEY ARE MEMORIES, LOST IN MY HEAD.

STRANGLED AND SUFFOCATED BY LIFE'S CRUEL FIST,

WHO WHERE THESE SOULS, YES THEY ARE MISSED.

I FEEL THEIR PAIN ECHO THREW AND I'M FORCED TO SEE,

THAT IN ALL OF THOSE FACES, I ONLY SEE ME.

LIFE DRAINING QUICKLY AS IF FROM A GLASS,

POURING OUT HEARTBEATS THAT JUST COULDN'T LAST.

WHY AM I DIFFERENT, SO EASILY TOSSED AWAY,

MAYBE I AM MEANT TO END UP THIS WAY.

ALL THESE EMOTIONS, SCREAMING INSIDE,

BEGGING FOR ABSOLUTION, WHILE PART OF ME DIES.

SMILE NICE AND PRETTY, LET THE WHOLE WORLD KNOW,

YOUR JUST A SHELL THAT LIVES WITH NO SOUL.

SO WHO WON THE BATTLE, WHO DIDN'T PLAY,

WHO LOST TO THE SHADOWS, IN THIS LIFE THEY PAID.

FORSAKEN

L.g.olson — Sat, 18 Aug 2007 16:01:13 GMT

MY MERE EXISTENCE, FORGED ON A KNIFE,

ONE QUICK MOVE, AND THERE GOES MY LIFE.

HUDDLED AND WEEPING, I SEE ALL THE PAIN,

WRAPPED UP AND SUFFOCATING IN CLEAR CELLOPHANE.

TRYING TO BREATH THREW ALL THE SHATTERED GLASS,

BELIEVING IN NOTHING, AVOIDING THE BLAST.

TATTERED AND WORN UPON SOME MISGUIDED TRUTH,

RAPED OF ALL INNOCENCE FROM MY FADED YOUTH.

YOU WANNA TEACH ME, WITH PLEASURE AND PAIN,

CUM A LITTLE CLOSER AND I'LL OPEN A VEIN.

BLEED OUT YOUR INNOCENCE, FALL OF ALL SAINTS,

REMEMBER THIS MOMENT, THIS IS MY FATE.

CRINGING AND CRYING, ALL HOPE HAS REGRESSED,

IT HAS GIVEN ME LIES, A FORBIDDEN CARESS.

MOAN TO THE PLEASURE, A FACE WITH NO EYES,

RIPPING AND TEASING , A DEADLY DISGUISE.

PERTINENCE A JOKE, ANOTHER ONES VICE,

GIVES YOU THE SOLACE, YOUR SURE TO DESPISE.

CREEPING MY VEINS, A HIDDEN ABUSE,

RUSHING MY BRAIN, DEPRIVATION IN USE.

DON'T SHOW ME NO MERCY, FORSAKEN AND BLIND,

BRUISED AND GORGED, MY BLOOD REDEFINED.

HOPELESS AND CALLOUS, RELY ON THAT CRUTCH,

I KNOW WHEN TO FALL, WHEN I'VE HAD TO MUCH.