Portal of Madness

VISIONS

L.g.olson — Wed, 22 Aug 2007 10:45:39 GMT

VISIONS I CARRY, I CARRY OF YOU,
I KNOW WHAT YOU DID AND NOW YOU ARE THREW.

I THOUGHT I KNEW YOU, BUT I WAS SO WRONG,
YOU TRIED TO BEAT ME, BUT I WAS TO STRONG.

I MUST REMEMBER, BEFORE MY MEMORY FADES,
ALL THAT YOU DID, STILL I COULDN'T BE SAVED.

I HAVE SEEN YOU IN NIGHTMARES, DREAMS HELLISH COST,
I RAN FROM YOUR SHADOW, I TRIED TO GET LOST.

BUT YOU KEPT ON HUNTING, PUSHING ME DOWN,
KNOCKING ME OUT, TILL IN BLOOD I WOULD DROWN.

I CAN REMEMBER THE WORDS ALL TO CLEAR,
I'LL GIVE YOU PAIN, I'LL TEACH YOU FEAR.

I STOOD MY GROUND, EYES LOCKED ON YOU,
WAITING FOR YOUR FIST TO TURN ME BLUE.

NO PAIN IS WORTH IT, NOT EVER FOR YOU,
I WILL NOT CRY, GO AHEAD, PUNCH THREW.

I AM MUCH STRONGER THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW,
I PLAN TO HURT YOU , FOR ALL THE PAIN SEWN.

LOOK AT ME BITCH, THOSE WORDS TO MY EARS,
YOUR NOT SO PRETTY NOW, THAT YOU'VE LEARNED TO FEAR.

YOU'LL NEVER DO BETTER, WHAT DO YOU HAVE LEFT,
NOBODY LOVES YOU, YOUR BETTER OFF DEAD.

I AM WHATS LEFT IN YOUR PITIFUL LIFE,
DON'T YOU FORGET IT, YOUR STILL MY WIFE.

NOTHING CAN STOP ME, NOT EVEN YOU,
I'LL DO WHAT I WANT, I'LL EVEN KILL YOU.

SO SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU STUPID LITTLE BITCH,
I HAVE A PLACE FOR YOU, DEEP IN A DITCH.

SIGH.

MEMORIES ARE DREAMS FOR ALL OUR PAST PAIN,
GOOD OR BAD, NOONES TO BLAME.

I SEE IT CLEARLY, FORGIVEN MY PAST,
BUT I AM STILL HAUNTED, BUT I HAVE MOVED PASSED.

IT'S NOT THE WHAT HAPPENED THAT MATTERS ANYMORE,
IT'S HOW YOU MOVE ON TO OPEN NEW DOORS.

TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR, AND NOT CARRY SHAME,
WHAT HAPPENED IS GONE, I'M NOT TO BLAME.

I AM ALIVE AND MY HEART IS TRUE,
I CARRY NO PAIN, I SAW IT THREW.

I'M STRONGER AND BETTER THAN EVER BEFORE,
I CANNOT BE STOPPED, HE CAN'T TOUCH ME NO MORE.

I DON'T THINK THAT I HATE HIM, STRANGE AS IT SEEMS,
BUT THAT WOULD ONLY GIVE HIM CONTROL OVER ME.

DON'T PITY ME, NOT FOR ONE SINGLE LINE,
I PAID MY DUES, I WON MY LIFE.

A COLD TOUCH

L.g.olson — Sun, 19 Aug 2007 04:08:21 GMT

WOUNDS NEVER HEAL, HEARTS NEVER LIE,

SOULS LIVE FOREVER, BUT THE BODY DOES DIE

FORSAKEN BY TIME, I RIDE THE NIGHT,

THE WOLVES DO HOWL AT THE MOON SO BRIGHT.

SPREADING MY BLOOD LIKE A DISEASE,

IN I DO FLOOD TO BEG ON MY KNEES.

I AM FORSAKEN FOR ALL I DO KNOW,

LET ME ARISE AND FREE UP MY SOUL.

CAST ME ASIDE SO I MAY FINALLY BREATHE,

IT WASN'T YOUR RIGHT, BUT YOU HAVE DECEIVED.

YOU TOUCH OF MY FACE AND SMILE TO THE GROUND,

THE FEAR I DO TRACE, AND FOR THIS I AM BOUND.

I SCREAM IN THE NIGHT, A HELPLESS NEW VOICE,

GIVEN INTO THE SOUND, NOT GIVEN A CHOICE.

BE CAST TO THE STONES FOR YOUR NOT TO BE HEARD,

SPEND LIFE ALL ALONE, REGARDLESS OF HURT.

PAIN IS YOUR PUNISHMENT, YOU GIVE ME WITHIN,

I WILL ALWAYS BE BOUND TO ALL OF YOUR SINS.

HENCE COMES THE DARKNESS, IT SETS IN MY SOUL,

DAMNED IN THE LIGHT TILL MY LIFE IS STOLE.

BETRAYED TO THE WOLVES AND THE HATE THEY DO BARE,

CUT THREW MY SKIN AND FLESH THEY DO TEAR.

TREACHEROUS AND DUMB I LAY AS IF DEAD,

AWAITING THAT BULLET TO GO THREW MY HEAD.

I AM NOT GUILTY FOR THINGS THAT COME TO PASS,

SO THE REST OF THIS WORLD CAN JUST KISS MY ASS.

I HAVE WATCHED YOU DECEIVE ME AND LIE TO MY FACE,

I AM NOT YOUR VICTIM IN THIS GOD FORSAKEN PLACE.

GIVEN MY HEART COUNTLESS OF TIMES,

SO SICK AND TIRED OF WORDS THAT DON'T RHYME.

RELEASE MY HEART FROM THIS ARROWS EDGE,

HIDE FROM THE SOUND, MY MOTHER HAS WEPT.

HOW I BESEECH THEE TO JUST WALK AWAY,

LET ME SUFFER ALONE IN THIS WORLD I MADE.

TOUCH NOT THE TEARS THAT HAVE FALLEN LIKE RAIN,

THEY MEANT NOTHING TO NOONE AND GOD HELP THE PAIN.

STARE AT ME NOW AND SEE ALL OF THE PAIN,

FOR I WAS NOT THE ONE, WHO HAD TO BE SLAIN.

NO HEART CRIED OUT HARDER, NO SCREAM FAILED THE TEST,

NO HEART LOVED LONGER OR BLED UNLIKE THE REST.

CAPTURED AND PUNISHED I BARE TO THE WALL,

I STAND FROZEN IN TIME, WATCHING MY SOUL FALL.

DIVING FOREVER BENEATH ALL OF THE DUST,

NEVER HITTING THE GROUND AS YOU THINK THAT IT MUST.

LAY YOUR HEAD BACK, SWALLOW YOUR PAIN,

FOR ALL I HAVE SAID, WAS SAID ALL IN VAIN.

SCREAMING

L.g.olson — Sun, 19 Aug 2007 03:32:48 GMT

THE DARKNESS SURROUNDS YOU, QUICKLY IT FEEDS,

YOU BLAME YOURSELF COMPLETELY, TILL YOUR BODY BLEEDS.

YOU SCREAM AND YOU CRY TILL NOTHING IS HEARD,

NOT ONE TIME WAS MY VOICE EVER HEARD.

YOU LAUGHED AND YOU TAUNTED, PLAYING WITH ME.

SHOVING SO HARD I FELL TO MY KNEES.

DELIGHTED AND JOYFUL AT ALL OF MY PAIN,

SEDUCING THE EVIL THAT SOON CAME TO REIGN.

TURNING YOUR BACK ON ALL THAT YOU MADE,

PRETENDING IT WAS ME, SO EASY TO BLAME.

POISONED AND SICK, IT GREW DEEP INSIDE,

WAITING FOR YOU AND ALL OF YOUR LIES.

LIED, MISTREATED , LEFT TO THE COLD,

FUCK ALL THE LIES, IT'S JUST GETTING OLD.

WANTING YOU TO FEEL ALL THAT YOU MADE,

NEVER TO HEAL, THE PRICE I WOULD PAY.

FEED IT, BELIEVE IT, DROP TO THE GROUND,

KNEEL TO ANGER, FOREVER BE BOUND.

HEARTLESS AND SOULLESS, A SOUL SO BETRAYED,

BUT IT WILL FIND YOU AND SOON YOU WILL PAY.

DREAMING AND WEAVING , SO HARD TO JUST SLEEP,

INSANITY RULES IN MY MIND, BECOMING MY KEEP.

IMPRISONED AND TORMENTED, BY MY MENTAL CELL,

CLAWING FOREVER, BOUND TO THIS HELL.

RAGE NEEDS A VICTIM, ANYONE WILL DO,

BUT ALL THAT I AM, IS ALL MADE BY YOU.

BE PROUD MY SWEET MAKER, LETS DANCE TONIGHT,

I'M READY TO GET BACK PART OF MY LIFE.

I DO NOT WANT IT, THIS RAGE AND THIS PAIN,

I'M GIVING IT BACK, YOU TAKE THE BLAME.

HUSH

L.g.olson — Sat, 18 Aug 2007 22:18:10 GMT

DID YOU HEAR THAT, DON'T SAY WORD,

ANOTHER HEART BEATS, WITHOUT BEING HEARD.

ANOTHER FACE WORN, A BURDEN OF PAIN,

ANOTHER HEART BROKE, ANOTHER TO BLAME.

ANOTHER ONE CRIES, ANOTHER ONE LIES,

ANOTHER LOVES, ANOTHER DESPISE.

ANOTHER SOUL CRIPPLES, ANOTHER FATAL BLOW,

ANOTHER FACELESS HEART, THAT NOONE WILL KNOW.

PITIFUL AND RAMPENT, THEY ALL FALL TO THE HATE,

ANOTHER LOST HEART, JUST LEARNED HOW TO HATE.

ANOTHER WILL REACH, FOR ANOTHERS COLD SOUL,

TO WARM WHAT IS LEFT, SO BITTER AND COLD.

ANOTHER WILL FEEL, ANOTHER WILL TAKE,

ANOTHER SO BLIND, TO THEIR OWN MISTAKES.

ANOTHER SO BEAUTIFUL, ANOTHER EMPTY SHELL,

ANOTHERS SO VAIN, ANOTHER ONES HELL.

ANOTHER SO EMPTY, THEY HIDE BY THEIR LIES,

ANOTHER ONE FALLS, ANOTHER ONE DIES.

ANOTHER SO DESPRATE, TO LOVE WITH THEIR HEART,

BUT SKIN DOES DECIEVE THEM, LEAVES THEM SO DARK.

ANOTHER ONE REACHS, HOPE IS SO VAIN,

ANOTHER MIGHT SEE THEM, LOOK PAST ALL THAT IS VAIN.

ANOTHER SO LOVED, BUT NOTHING IS THERE,

ANOTHER WILL TAKE IT, BECAUSE BEAUTY IS THERE.

ANOTHER WILL SEE, BUT NOT WITH THEIR EYES,

ANOTHER WILL LOVE, WHAT ANOTHER DESPISE.

I SEEK THE SOUL, NOT THE FACE THAT CAN LIE,

I SEEK THE HEART, THE BODY DOES HIDE.

I SEEK THE MAGIC, THAT EXPLODES IN THE MIND,

I SEEK THE SOUL, BECAUSE BEAUTY DOES LIE. LGO 2007

THIS MOMENT

L.g.olson — Fri, 17 Aug 2007 08:37:06 GMT

MARK THIS MOMENT, THIS MOMENT IS MINE,

I AM POISON INSIDE YOUR WEAK MIND.

CARNAGE REELS THREW MY TORMENTED SOUL,

WREAKING HAVOC TILL I LOSE CONTROL.

ALL IS ABANDONED TO FREE THESE CHAINED WINGS,

SET ME FREE FROM ALL THE PAIN THESE CHAINS BRING.

BURNING INSIDE THE PAIN IS COMPLETE,

SCARS OF A PAST LIFE, RUNNING SO DEEP.

BEAUTY AND GRACE THAT WHAT WAS ONCE MINE,

IS NOW REMOVED BY THIS SOUL OF MINE.

IN WALKS THE DARKNESS, RAPEING ME INSIDE,

NOWHERE TO RUN, NOWHERE TO HIDE.

ESCAPEING THE MEMORIES, THAT BAR THIS FRAGILE CAGE,

RUNNING WITH BLOOD , I SLIP TO DISGRACE.

CHAOS AND HAVOC, A WAKE OF DESTRUCTION AWAITS,

THESE WINGS SEVERED BY THE THORNS OF MY OWN HATE.

I CHOKE ON THE ANIMAL , THAT ANIMAL IS ME,

BLINDED BY MY OWN BLOOD, THAT BLOOD BETRYAYS ME.

LEAVE ME TO THE DEMONS THAT HIDE IN MY MIND,

TEARING AND CLAWING THREW ME, TILL I DIE INSIDE.

KILL THIS ANGEL, SO YOU CAN BREED,

RAPING THESE WINGS AND PLANT THAT SEED.

SEETHING AND DRIPPING, THE EVIL SUBLIME,

THE EVIL IS ME, THIS EVIL, MY MIND. Lgo 2007